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When you love someone, there’s nothing you can do to control your heart. It controls you.

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I wonder how it feels like to be in love .
I wonder how if feels to recieve a message and always smile at it.
I wonder how it feels like to miss someone until you feel like a part of you is missing.
I wonder how it feels like to be held close to the one you love.

But I gave up on you. I gave up on love. Becos everytime I try & put my heart and soul into it. Everytime it let's me down.


Hello earth . Today was <3 ttm. I luv studying with you guys <3 haha . Yay .




Oooooooooooookay i know its like her boobs are sagging... but yeah . I love Lindsay Lohan ! - dispite all the rumors and how terrible she is. I still love how she use to be :D I love her first film the parents trap. I watched it when i was young & im still watching it now. She's FAB. I love her smile :D

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Sometimes, when people decide to leave you for good, you have to let them. No matter how much you dont want them to. There are some things that are far beyond our control. Even if you have the strength to fight for them, you have to accept the cold harsh truth - The people that you cant live without, can live without you.

hey, its earth hour and im blogging, im sorry earth. My dad just came back at like excatly 929 and i was like , dad.. its earth hour you know. then he off all the lights and i was like it over already ! haha. it hasnt been a fruitful day uh, becos we were suppose to do project today but... the internet isnt helpful so yeah.

so many test next week ): stressss uh .




you gotta admit it, THEY LOOK DAMN HOT TOGETHER :D

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ITS VERY SIMPLE. I LOVE YOU.

yes, yes i do :D actually, NO :D hahaha. ANYWAYS, what a perfect day today is. HOLY SHIT is tomorrow Thursday ?! omg ): me dont like.

okay shit. You know, we kinda talked today. It seemed so strange. Its like you're so near yet so far. I cant remember the last time i smiled when i was with you. I mean, every moment of that. i want to run away from you so badly .

so that was kind of the sad part today ):

I CANT IMAGINE A PERFECT DAY WITHOUT HAVING TO FEEL SAD SOMETIMES.


"You don’t know what you do to me. How happy I am when we talk and how it kills when you don’t reply me or when you tell me you can’t talk anymore."

they don't really care about us

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School was awesome today ? ;D hahah . Kind of . But ms yanti isn't gonna teach us anymore for f&n and that kinda sucks I mean , she's the funniest teacher ever ! Haha . Kay. The day started off quite perfectly , but you know there's just some idiots who like ruining your day ? Yeah uh . Screw you . The sight of you MAKES ME WANT TO PUKE . but Ayeeeeee , what to do ? Show face luh .

Training tomorrow . I don't know I should be excited anot . Haha. I kinda miss maria . Anyways . I miss my cure juniors too . Ann <3 she's damn awesome Kay . So chen chen won't be around for training and we are gonna train by ourselves :D

Oh my , the days are inching closer and closer to thursday . I DONT LIKE ):


you have no idea how painful it was , to be standing next to you but wanting to walk away so badly.

I hate it. I hate what we've become. I hate the fact that memories last time were so fucking awesome and now they are just in pieces. I hate my eyes for looking in your direction. I hate you - but I don't hate you at all. I just want you to see how blinded you are. I just want you to see. That one day when you find out what kind of person she is... I hope you know. I hope you know.

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School is not as bad as I expected it would be . Haha .
Yayness .


One last post before going back to school .
Ever heard of a thing called blog secret ? It's like this blog where anyone can put their secrets there for people to see :D and some of them will just get commented . I haven't try I out yet cuz I can't figure out with secret I should tell .
Anyways , this post is going out to the person that typed secret 3523 . Whoever you are , I want you okay ? :D cheer up stranger .

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I just Wanted to type that down. I mean , isn't it like the most awesome thingy ever ? :D I should really type my secrets there some day . I wonder how Many comments I will get .

Oh god , Sunday is coming to an end and I just wish to turn back time . I don't want Thursday to come . urg . I hate Thursdays . Boo .
Thursday is being a ***** ): sigh .

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This one last paragraph is dedicated to my one and only awesome guy friend :D
I'm really sorry you had to stay up all the way Till one plus waiting for my reply and I was sleeping . Haha . But here's to you and our best friendship ever . Sometimes life gets pretty shitty right , but I'm here whenever you're feeling shitty ^^ hahah . I know you might be going overseas to study but know this , our friendship won't change no matter how far apart we are :D

Cheers :D




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f is for friends who do stuff together ,
u is for you and me .
N is anything at anytime at all down here in the deep blue sea :

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Don't you just love spongebob ?
Schools starting tomorrow and I'm just going to rant on why I don't want to go to school tomoorrow .
Firstly it's cause my dad didn't print our the overall plan. For my f&n and i'm going to be screwed . Secondly , I haven't done math homework.
Thirdly , I don't understand a shit about the poa worksheet . Fourth . WE HAVE DO TO A CHEM WORKSHEET ?!?!?! Fifth, I have likes super big headache .

Screw ):


HEART FOR SALE ! :D

Who wants to buy my heart ?
I'm having it for sale. Though it's only secondhand,
still it functions well .
Because once, I sold it whole & he returned it in pieces.
Now, I had it all repaired, so I'm back into business.
Who wants to buy my heart ?
Satisfaction guaranteed . It has free service charge .
& a lifetime warranty.
If you are asking about the price ,well...
You're in for a bargain. It only cost your love .

:D anyone ?

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Fuck yeah . 2dee is the bomb ! Haha.
Remember me is a weird movie . Cause you have to very veryyyyy chin to understand it .
Robert died ): 9/11 . Definitely a day to remember .


should I smile because we are friends ? Or cry because we'll never be anything more ?

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I thought of us every moment. It's ironic how everytime I don't really care about it but I can't stop dwelling on it. I miss the feeling we used to have between us before her . I can't do this anymore, i tried to stop myself . I guess it's just human nature. The more you can't have it, the more you want it. I hate it. I hate what is happening . Because eveytime I talk to you, I feel her there . Then I'll feel really bad, and want the feeling to go away so badly. This is so agonizing. The worst part is that i can't do anything about it . I can't tell you .

Today was okay I think . Sherlene ah ! I love you ! Thanks for drinking coffee with me :D can't wait t see you tmr :D
and yeah . Thanks bestie ^^ haha . I wanna bite you :B


"it's can't be her. It's not her. She not that kind of person. She would never say such a thing. I know. I know her. "

but you're so wrong .

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I had to lie to make it all better. I don't mind losing this. This is best. Best for us.
I can feel my heart aching when I told myself that. It's her. But I can't tell you. "I hate you," you murmered.
Right at that moment, I felt everything about us - all the memories, the late night calls, the games , the messages , the way you used to be -shatter into pieces.


hello , goodbye

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With a smile, you said. "text me when you're alone" . My mind flustered, I wanted to know what's on your mind. Did I do something wrong ? Did you hate me or what I said before? You're like a box with a lock, but you can't find the key. In your heart there is alot of secrets that can't be told. You're so mysterious that everytime you try and step further away from me, the closer I want to get to you. You're so addictive, and I cant help myself.

All alone now, I took a deep breath. "hey, I'm alone now" I'm walking right into your trap, but no one could stop me. I'm captivated, captivated by you .


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people from mautritius are backkkkk ^^ yay !
When t the airport to pick them up today . It's 204 and I just reached home. Haha.
There was no train service so I had to take the bus back . Luckily , Joseph , yingjie and rexston were there to accompany me :D haha .

I'm so tired . And there's training tomorrow morning . Should I go ?




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OMFG ): WHAT HAPPENED TO TAYLOR LAUTNERS PACS ? WTH . NOT HOT ANYMORE ):
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !


I saw you today. You were completely different now. You crouched in a corner, with your head lying on your arms. You didn't want anyone to see how you looked now. You were hurt but you could make a sound - there were so many people surrounding where you were. It was then that you plucked up your courage and walked out of this place with your face saying "I can't take this anymore". As I saw you drifting further and further away from me, I wish you would turn and look at me. How I loath for you to go so soon and with so much pain. I could see now I was no longer apart of you . You, however, had grown to be apart of her. I miss the times that we had, but there's no turning back now. At least now we can rest our case. Somethings are just not meant to be.

You have no idea where you're heading . It's wrong , that's not heaven .

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too late to be sorry now .

my whole day was packed today . First the speech thing and then training . It was the usual . Haha . But Darren made me laugh he'll lots when he was doing weights ^^ and oh oh . The Maria . Haha . I can't believe someone would critisize herself like that D:
okay sorry for that mean part ... Now , where's that strike out code .....

Tomorrows gonna be a blast cause there ain't nothing better than doing a math project ! (NOT)
oh wells , bye peeps .


the best damn thing, is to have you as my awesome bestie.
& how i can always count on you <3

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You looked right into my eyes and pulled me towards your warm chest, placing your lips gently on mine. i could feel your heart beat as you pulled me closer. You have never held me like that before. i wished every second of this was real, that it would last. Now, holding you ever so closely, my heart ached- i didn't want to let go. I don't want this to be just a memory. There was so much i haven't told you, so much i want you to know. Like why i didn't want to talk to you. As your lips left mine, you turned to a familiar voice that called out to you. Reluctantly, you turn away saying " dear love, I'll be back, i love you. ". I can still remember every bit of that, it felt so surreal. Tears trickle down my face as i woke up, but i knew it would never happen. &you would never know.

but dreams aren't real. how i wish i didn't dream of you that night.

anyways, today was like.. usual?
tomorrow have training, wednesday have training, thursday have training.
i'll die ):

lucky i still have bestie around. he understands me the most of the most of the most of the most. yay . yupp <3 i love my bestie :D




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i've been feeling a little down of late..
training tomorrow 8pm.
please kill me.

where are my BEST damn friends ?!


today your love, tomorrow the world.

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okay , i dont want. repeat . DONT WANT to go for training tomorrow D:
so little people is going and ..... my rally partner is going to be at mauritus at that time. BOO. WHORE):

we had sports day today(!) haha. the best part ? it was raining like damn heavily. i didnt even get to run today. how nice. oh, remember the cheapskate coupons, yes the yellow one that they gave us . i didnt use it . haha . in your face , you stupid coupons that dont work .

so the real best part was that yeow liang actually used his account to download doodle jump for me :D yay. but ever since then, i've been trying to break his high score... nd guess what, it doesnt work . haha.

eventually sports day ended (after alot of rain) , and we carried on with our lifes :D 22 people went for the outing today ! yay ! alice in wonderland you know, not an awesome movie. i got scared ...and i almost fell asleep. so out of five POPCORNS, i'll give two popcorns. Anne haterway is like super weird in the movie D:

after the movie, went to play guitar hero :D haha . weeeeeeeeeee, it was fun !
then the usuals , and go home . now i cant wait for next thursday <3




The Great Blue Hole, located near Ambergris Caye, Belize. It was formed as a limestone cave system during the last glacial period when sea levels were much lower. As the ocean began to rise again, the caves flooded, and the roof collapsed. Believed to be the world’s largest feature of its kind, the Great Blue Hole is part of the larger Belize Barrier Reef Reserve System, a World Heritage site.

i wanna go there someday :B

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peeps :D its offically wednesday tomorrow. andd yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! you know why ? cause it is sports day tomorrow ! three cheers for dundee hip hip hurray :D !

okay, i admit, im suppose to be doing r&d noww but ayeeeee. sorry mom , i just have to do this ^^v .

today was quite okay i suppose. all of my days are like pretty much "okay" now. its boring how we go through the same routine every single day. i wish i could do something new. haha. so today is probably the longest tuesday ever. i mean, i think monday is so much better compared to tuesday. YOU KNOW WHY ? becos, tuesday has friggin 1 and a half hour of chinese. plus we mostly have test on tuesday cause the period is extended or whatever crap. but still. chinese sucks the life out of me.
oh , to top off tuesday, i just have to find out that mdm yani is teaching us POA. omg. i want karen chong back. yes. i love her. i mean who else can replace her in our hearts. find me a teacher in queenstown secondary that actually plays music during a test or lets you watch whatever youtube video you want or bakes brownies for you to eat in class or let you play poker in class. oh yes, ms karen chong is that kind of awesome teacher.
ayeeeeeeeee.
tuesday sucks to the max.

after all the lessons , blah blah blah . im suppose to go for house practice... but.then. i dont even know a single thingwe are going to dance for tomorrow. plus my senior isnt there to teach..... so yeah:D

went for lunch with sis , at KFC = yum .

o wells. back to boring r&d.
chao outside motherfuckers :D




yummy :D
when i recover, im going to eat all of this thingsssssssssss ^^
haha. anyways, today was okay i think .
except for some parts. guys are such bastards . yeah, you know who you are . YOU ! other than that, the others were quite okay. i have no idea how t put it down in a long post so i shall just do this,

school-home-yl house-queensway-home

:D so much easier rights.
okay, im just waiting for tales runner to patch so that i can play with sidekick and ryan .
haha .
tmrs gonna be a longgg day :D
ciao peeps.




dont you just love the city

okay , so i havent been posting for awhile but hey, sec three life is H-A-R-D . i wonder how those people in three a can cope with their pure subs and everything. anyways, the only reason im blogging is cause i dont have anything to do now. oh yes. its a thursday morning and im suppose to be right in school. i caught the flu bug and everything is like crap now D: so............................. im blogging :D yay. oh yes, i would love to give many thanks to those people that told me get well soon or something like that, louis, ACFFL, shumin, sherlene, ryan, janice, mavis, yeow liang, alvin, jiamin. lets hope it gets better though.

so i was browsing through tumblr and i saw this amazing thingy called happy pills :D haha . if i can get my hands on them, i'll sure share it with anyone that feels unhappy right now. even if you're a complete stranger. its like in flash or whatever, so i have no idea how to put it up here unless some smart ass teaches me how to :D *hints*

so okay, its 1137 and im just waiting for 1 to come cause by that time, mom would be calling me to ask me what i want to eat & im starving. i haven't eaten anything since just now& all i had was half a cup of miso soup. in my defence, the miso soup sucks D: i think it was all yesterday's fault D: cause all i ate yesterday was a quarter bowl of beef noodle and two hot dog buns D:

okay guys , i think thats about it. i shall go bury myself in one of sophie kinsella's book.
ciao .

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p.s. thanks acffl for the get well soon e cards :D

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one word to describe me ? awesome .
kittens are the best damn thing ever created .
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